The Grand Piano

San Francisco 1975–80

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PART 3

Steve Benson begins:

NEARLY THIRTY YEARS AGO, in the fall of 1976, Carla and I moved to San Francisco. Soon we separated, amicably, definitely, remaining fast friends. In the winter, in the apartment on Hampshire Street in the Mission District that I still shared with her brother after she left, I kept an untitled journal that indicates I was preoccupied by thoughts about being with women and being with men and the ways one may as a man be with women and what I wanted in intimacy and my uncertainty about it all.

So many thoughts going through my head lately I
feel stupid - I don't know what to do w/ them.




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